i’ve been seasick 4 most of this journey till now i carry the whole ocean in my belly
at some point i pray these bits of ramblings will find a listening ear- Never was it a wish or desire on my part to be at sea with a bunch of soap hating pirates and the worst one has woven his vampiric venemon into me
how could i have ever asked 4this?
some nites ago it felt like we hit a whale even the most sturdy of this bunch chunked up marbles and blubber
there is something to be said of a soul who sleeps through killing waters
perhaps it was for me to know that i am not as cursed as i believe myself to be
when all got calm again the smell of death brought the sea to wail & the fog turned us all into dreams and nightmares only deep waters contain. i cannot say more than this – whats the point in describing exactly how the world ends.
i write this while above deck & the sun in my face . i have come to know that although i am infused with vampire blood my source of life still draws from the sun as much as the moon. this is something going thru the unmentionable storm taught me